Rainbows

We have decided to run away and chase rainbows in his magic car.

Just me, Sebastian and Martin.

I would love to chase a rainbow and find my gold.

But more so, so I could get my colours back!

musings

Its strange how people come and go in your life,some you remember, some you forget, some stay with you forever..

If only the moon could appreciate its glow?

One of my favourite things is to lie in bed late at night with the curtains open, the moon is so bright it illuminates my skin and tingles my senses, it is deadly still outside and all I can hear is my own heartbeat. I close my eyes and hope that the moon is shining on all of my friends and my dearest Taylor of course! So I lie there, silent and still and basking in the sweet atmosphere that is the night and its moon.

Lyrics and Songs

A friend knows the song in my heart and sings it when my memory fails.

Thanku for being such a genius

If I can stop one heart from breaking,
I shall not live in vain;
If I can ease one life the aching,
Or cool one pain,
Or help one fainting robin
Up to his nest again,
I shall not live in vain.

22nd Year

3 weeks now is all I have left of my 21st year, and oh how good that feels, I want to start a fresh, make amends, learn to love again without it breaking my heart and my smile.

I feel strong now, ready for all of life’s challenges, ready to live without him-because now I have no choice-he is ready to live without his Eden so I therefore have to learn to live again without my Charlie...

So hello 22, goodbye 21 and welcome new Eden!!

The truth,

'quod me nutruit me destruit'

Juggling

A mission he says: ‘to learn how to juggle by your birthday and then we will have a juggle off’

Oh it’s on!

Mini-missions in life are what keep the world turning!

21st Year

So my birthday nears and I look back on what I have accomplished in my 21st year of life.

Well:

I have learnt not to give up on things so easily,
I have learnt how to love again,
I have learnt that I have a vicious tongue and to be careful with it,
I have learnt how to make people smile,
I have learnt how to make people sad, and I have learnt how painful that can be,
I have gained my best friend,
I have learnt that no matter how many miles separate us we are still right next to each other if we look deep enough.
I have grown to appreciate the smaller things in life, and to pass them by if they don’t seem to make a difference,
I have found a Charlie!
I have adopted a Martin!
I have made friends and lost enemies,
I have let some of my past go, and I hope never to get it back.
I have developed a new bond with Suzanna.
I have learnt that sometimes my colours are dull,
Sometimes they are vibrant, just like me.
I have learnt to be ok, in my own skin.
I have learnt that I miss her more with every passing day,
But I have gained faith, faith that one day we will meet again...

I wish i could list more but i feel this for now is enough-for one year!

Lemons and Pickles

I find myself in quite a pickle Taylor.
I am sucking on my lemons,
But also now I have found salt,
I am stuck in this jar and do not know how to get out!

I find myself now talking complete nonsense!

How can this be? Have I talked it all along?

Lyrics and Songs

I feel like a snowpatrol or a coldplay song,
Like the lyrics of my life are sad but humbling.
I wish I knew what needs to be done now.
I wish my life could be a song and have an ending, an answer to my questions.
Because at the minute i'm stuck on the chorus!!!