Numb

Today i do not have drops of jupiter in my hair, my skin has not been kissed by the sun and my eyes do not sparkle.

Today i have no sparkle, no feelings, no smile.

I want to scream because i cannot get rid of the numbness that takes over my heart and claims it for all to see, for all to point at and ridicule.

Why can't i just sleep for hours and hope that the numbness will fade? I long for it to fade, i long for Charlie to understand this, i long for Eden to understand this.

Just fade away numbness, thats all i ask, just fade away, go to where the nothingness went and be happy with it, do not plague my heart with your darkness and evil.

Just fade away...